first thing in the morning, last thing at night, the unsolvable problem, the itch that can't be scratched. something with no solution, without any means of easing, without a salve, without an ointment. should i hit something else to divert the brains attention to pain elsewhere? how much would i give for a solution? how much would I give to make it go away? and then, I've done it, I've completed yet another circle, almost, still missing maybe one, denial, bargaining, anger, despair, acceptance. No, been there and done that, although not in that order, and ha, 3 months to 3 years, as suggested by this site. and realizing that, understanding that, well, it still sucks. and so it goes, first thing in the morning, last thing at night...