learning, it goes on in the weirdest places. knowing something new. it's always been the newness that was so exciting, so defying in a sense, breaking the norm, above the water, into something different and exciting, but now i'm looking back at what i broke out of, and realizing, such a thing never needed to be broken, the glass ceiling i saw above me? a figment of my own imagination, i always saw the world as that tiny little pinhead visible after travelling lightyears away, it's only so very very little, but there's so much there, upon returning to find a vast world filled with an ecosystem with no equal, and this though stays with me, a riptide in my day to day life, a deep dark undercurrent, like it has my feet, like i'm losing footing, like i'm built on sand.