questions, understanding that leads to questions, that leads to something, that leads nowhere, an answer that answers with more questions, i wonder, i ask, i don't know, all these things, lives unlived, paths untaken, a way of life, the way i have lived, the choices i had made, my entire life, up at this point, at this stage, now, at 10:44 pm on a saturday night, in my 23rd year of life, here, 9 months into my first full time job, 10 months out of college, living on my own, here, in this place, is this it? is this where i'm supposed to be after living my life for 23 years, after my parents had taken care of me for so long, is this where i'm supposed to be? is this what i'm supposed to be doing? and what will i do to make it right? because that is the one thing i know is a purpose, not necessarily the one thing, a thing, but that is to just do things right, to just do the right thing. what that is, you just know.