the top, the pinnacle, a championship, and no idea if I ever reached it, stood there at the top, looking down at everyone else, and honestly, not sure if I ever wanted to, but always wanted it to be about the journey, the playing, getting somewhere, and the where wasn't but the getting was, process vs. goal oriented, and shaped my ultimate career, not about getting the W's, but always wanted to do it right and smart and have fun doing it. joy of the game. friends who played. and still play. and seeing, at least hearing, reaching the top? of a team I helped start, that I was there from the beginning, but grew while I faded away. I think it's like watching your kid grow up, get friends, blossom in college. Or for an NBA team to draft a player with potential, then have them leave at some point and grow into an all-star for another team. Happy, sad, and bitterweet.