private, public, public private, hidden and viewed, availability, information flow, free and clear to consequential release, the cause and effect, the transfer of emotional release, to capture, ying and yang, always, the balance. strong and weak to weak and strong and back again. those goofy desktop thingamabobs, those toys made of liquid, that little ostrich, that dips its head down into the trough, pulls back, then dips again, back and forth, seesaw, teeter totter, back and forth. that's how the sadness goes, the pain and suffering. does it ever even out, what happens when one side disappears, and one side is left to carry it all, what then? what if neither side disappears, does it ever go away? do the laws of thermodynamics stop applying to emotional and psychological suffering?