unable to write, unwilling to share, too many readers, too many windows, too much knowledge, knowing too much, knowing not enough to be dangerous, and suddenly the avenue, the street down which cars and trucks full of feeling and emotion and questions and investigations, it's closed, construction, or maybe a pedestrian walkway now, but definitely closed. odd that way, when it's been open for so long, the opposite of what happened with state street, at least in chicago, but unwilling, at least for now. sharing too much, not sharing enough, unwilling and unwanted.