missed, not a bulls-eye, not dead on target, missed, but not missed in that sense of the word, not missed as failure, unable to get, over the head, but right in the heart, no, not missed in that sense of the word, but missed, as in missing, as in absence, felt, palpable, a tangible thing, carried and weighed, thoughts and heavy hearts, and missed. missed, funny to have such varied definitions, of failure, or lack of, without, maybe not so funny, not so contradictory, not so self opposed, but true to itself, missed, unable to achieve, to be without, to not get, missed