first impressions, initial shocks, that wave of emotion, reaction, preaction, when thought hasn't really yet entered the picture, and you just reel for whatever it is that cause this reaction, pure and utter feeling, emotion, unfettered by the thoughts that come later, that diffuse, lessen, rationalize, understand, dismiss, eventually forget, but first steps, fdisk so to speak, and the world begins anew, with even more behind, but such is the story of life, change, flux, new things become old, old things become older, change happens all the time, oftentimes unexpected, unwanted, but shit happens, and it happens all the time.