here i am, at the ripe old age of 23, with 23 years of experience behind me, and who knows how many before me, but only a guess, or more like a hope, but here i am, feet on the ground, head up, chin up, looking around. you could say i'm lost, or standing still, cause i am. i look around and see many things around, directions to go in. i see paths, well worn, well travelled, some not so. which one should i take, which one do i have to take, do i want to take? does it really matter? what if i just keep standing here. what if i start running and hit a tree, or a bear trap, or something else entirely? but here i am. looking around. the sky looks nice above. cloudy, looks like rain. the weather's nice, feels like spring. i'm a little tired, i really should get to bed early tonight, and sleep well.