first now, then detail later, impressions, feelings, welled up, whell'd up, inside, deep within, 5, 6 years ex post facto, long years running, still there, always there, but lines missed from second string videos, what line was it anyway, i can check now, slow motion, search to it, but i forget, and why, was it forgotten, was it remembered, to cherish, to build a dream on, to hold on to a hope, beginnings of ends, dashing of fishes, and those tight ropes held tenously between big toe and that toe next to it, balance, agreement, a common misconception, kevin smith and degrassi, teen dramas long before, but without, the ever essential, and non comedic tones, of the voiceover, but pictures available, wondering where, start looking for a handshake, just one handshake, and a look.