a week down south, playing frisbee, getting tan, laying out on the beach, easterns doesn't go so well, 0fer, not playing y best, trying, but failing, condo life, good, putt putt = minigolf, go kart, lost contacts, hair styling sessions, friend goes down, donuts only once, just donut, clubbed once, such a sick sport, demented, borderline sexual harassment, don't understand the logic, the concept, the lack of respect necessary, way things work, she looked like her, reminded me of her, the outfit, style of dancing, air, makes me ill, sick to my stomach, still haunting me, still chasing me in dreams, in nightmares, she never goes away, it could be fun, it could be exciting, can't get a girl in a place like that, just looking for random hookups, looking for lust, looking for non-loves, looking for big biceps and bigger ... technicalities, frustrations, the gift, a talent, not many people have, nor could many people acquire, a black art, practiced by few, seduction, i don't like it.