tables turned, but the one thing, choices made, understood, believed, still believe, still cherish and value, love, everlasting, pledging, beauty and uplifting, difficult and hard, but true, above all true, faith and grace and love, and above them all stands love, love, love, little hearts drawn above i's, feeding your wife of 20 years when she is sick in bed, holding the hand of your soulmate when she gives birth to your child, or maybe it's not even yours, being there to see you kid graduate from college, from high school, from trade school, giving away my daughter at her wedding, watching my son from the front pew as he looks down the aisle at my future daughter-in-law. futures, colliding, impacting, fragmenting, dissipating, mosaic dissolve, into a park bench, nice wooden with cast iron railings, by a pond, in a park, near a river, wherever ducks may be, and feeding them crumbs, dried bread, torn up my old age spotted hands, well used from hitting the keyboard for years, blue skys dotted with clouds, sunsets, beautiful in pink and purple hues and saturations, #FFFF00, maybe, if i get it right, or think i do, but dreams wishes hopes manifested on television, at least someone lives them, even if it is fiction