seeing her again, the joy, the thrill, the pain and pleasure, so enjoyable, and just out of reach, fingertips caress, miss the feel and touch, the pure exhilaration, the beating heart, the blood flowing through vessels, coursing through, energizing, transporter beams through time and space, to same time, different space, to dreams unheard, but imagined, to places seen, but not visited, to go there someday, to be there someday, someday, maybe soon, plans afoot, plans hatched, the seed crystal, needing the solution, supersaturated, needing it, waiting for it, waiting, the waiting, biding the time, soon, healing periods, factors, considerations, smartest choices in my life, to give up instant gratification for the long haul, the long haul, future, yet undecided, the very nature of looking ahead defining it in the very instant that i look, and see, a future of circles, of round objects flying high above grassy fields, with hands outstretched, legs akimbo, eyes on the disc, soon, all too soon