normality, struggled for, pined for, finally achieved, like a mountaintop finally climbed, better analogy, the grass finally stepped on the other side of the fence, but it looks better on the other side, always wanted to be normal, everyday, pedistrian, and after being that, being there, want to go back, realizations that only come from experience, that come from walking those 14 miles uphill both directions in 12 ft of snow to school and work, about falling in and out of love, about shit happening, about school and grades, and friends and family, about values and traditions, and meals and sports, and and and