new, old, fresh and bold. crossroads. too much time has passed, thoughts gone uncaptured, lost in the between. worries, fears, and stress. introductions, introduced, package deals with the joy and happiness, the smiles that warm the heart, but with it the responsibility, oh the responsibility. and the worries. oh the worries. worst case scenarios. the endless possibilities, causes and effects, ramifications. too much, too little, control, food, sleep, structure, unstructure, nature vs. nuture, personality formed vs established, the way you are and the way you can make yourself, that others can make you into, which in and of itself is the way you are. but wonders of wonders, joys of joys. that smile when you come home from work. when she sees you first thing in the morning. trade-offs. balance paid. balance. with such good, where is the bad? the storm clouds, the dark gathering on the horizon, and watching it build. and just waiting for it to strike. when, where, how much dodging, possible to outrun, possible to weather, to hunker down, to see if you can wait it out. but a crossroads. i think. maybe. could be overblown. could be underblown. maybe i'll be whelmed. maybe opportunities knocking. maybe it's Shan Yu's time, and maybe finally get to know the real me.