apart, seems, odd things, here and there, not quite right, not quite the same, strange uncomfortableness, lack of perfection, of a comfort zone, when everything used to go smoothly, no rough edges or patches, smooth sailing, a crystal clear and glassy surface on the ocean of life, but now, some waves, some rough patches, and wondering when the seas will calm again, when things will get back to the way they were, and hope this isn't the new status quo, that this isn't the new baseline, that the starting off point is different, the equilibrium point has moved, i hope not.