butterflies in stomach, moths in the intestines, jittery like too many cups of coffee after some mountain dew and jolt, candy bars the sugar on a spoon, acing all finals, making a great meal, watching a really good movie or waking up after much needed sleep, right after a make, make test, and ./a.out and it works. right after hearing those three words you've always wanted to hear, or maybe it's four, but details, always just details, jittery, glittery, hippy songs and visuals, dreams and allocations, and challenges, expressed or otherwise, gauntlets