looking back, why look forward, into the past, into history, and reading history, reading status, facts, thoughts and feelings from confusion, understanding, what was said once and still holds true, or held true, or even became true, like a prophecy, and names, how a soccer player from baltimore, stars cross, and not enough, not enough respect, not enough thought, not enough care, it just wasn't enough to that one who got away in high school, who got away, and some might say escaped, missed out on self destruction, on the collapse, from one year to the next, from highs to lows, from left to right, such are the things that make men's souls