growing up, growing old, growing out, growing in, no longer the strength and vitality of youth, no longer speedy, not fast, not so good anymore, times passes, and body degrades, deteriorates, seeking the lowest possibly energy state, wondering if the physical peak is behind, or ahead, is 28-29 the magic years, if so that's a long 4 years, between here and now and the time between minutes and seconds, to get someplace i've never been