hi james, hi john, hi jenni, hi jessica, hi debbie, hi dave, hi brian, hi karl, hi tiffany? hi jen?hello, welcome to musings. some quick notes you may or may not have figured out:

• the numbers in the title are the military time and date of that particular musing
• first started sometime in january, you can check it out
• i try to write every night, but that sometimes fails
• i have written sensitive material in white font color before

so people read this, not just strangers, maybe strangers do, but people, my friends, people i know, people i'd like to get to know, does my extensive set of samsonite luggage scare you off? am i not a challenge? do i scare you, frighten you, make you run away? why? who am i kidding. i can't help laughing after passing the woman who started this whole thing for me in the first place, passing, walking back from norris, for all that matters, simple strangers in the night, and i can't help but laugh, can't help but wonder if she reads, if she's reading, if she smiles and laughs, points me out to her friends and says, "look, there's that guy, with colored hair, who still loves his ex-girlfriend, has issues with the state of minnesota, and is just generally fucked up". so what about the new one i hardly got a chance to know? what about you? had enough? was i wrong to ask about crusade? or was it this, this creation, this monster that seems to grow without me watering it? i'm not moving. nor am i homeless. long one tonight, musings, personal, public, personal in a public forum, public personality, personal publicity, everyting changes with certain realizations, understandings, coming to grips with things, journal? book. for those that remember this was, is, shall be, that book, that went up in flames, that fateful saturday after prom, that book, covered with indestructible duct tape, that held meaning so profound i've forgotten it all. this is to be a journal, a memoirs, a certain tiny piece of my life for everyone to see, my second attempt at attention getting, my hair being the first. so hello to my readers, stop reading, and keep coming back.