sometimes the pain just doesn't go away, i thought it would, months off, in promise of a better tomorrow, of better days, but the pain, it returns, somethings are just, well, there forever i guess, scarred for life, some might say, i don't know if my game's ever going to be any good again, i wonder what this bodes, what next, if ultimate is no more, or maybe the abando's just aren't destined for this sort of thing, or then again, you just play through the pain, for as long as you can, grin and bear it, it's worked before, but then again, there's always some point, some limit that's reached, where it just has to stop, i just wonder when i'm going to cut myself on the edge of that envelope