disillusioned, cloudy vision, sunglasses at night, mental breakdowns escapes, venting, without such explosions, volcanic eruptions, dealing, managing, sports agents, but other things are better left unsaid, undenied, untrue, public consumption again, no longer self read, it was interesting to go back, to return to such simple times, when outlets, without worry, became, understood, flourished, and then no longer, on time, full days, sore backs, spasms, questioning resolve, sport so removed, months, long months since i last played, and it's been such a long time, i being to wonder, without it life wasn't so bad, without it, without it, well, life goes on, it always does.