returning to greener pastures, young grasslands, changed over time, but the essense remains, wishing i had taken greater care, taken more, used more, good things, could have been good memories, could have beens, weres, ledges too short, used to be taller than me, couldn't even climb up, couldn't even touch them, younger days, shorter days, differences over time, the pine trees are gone, the paths different, platforms gone, fences put up, door handles removed from secret pathways inside, hidden places under the stage, secret places still remain? memories intact, sweet, and saved, forever placed underneath beds, in boxes, in drawers, to be enjoyed, again, to be remembered, cherished, enjoyed, again, pictures, not too long ago, times not that far removed, much closer than i realized, right around the corner, sharp edged, but corner nonetheless, not within eyesight, but hearing and speaking works just fine, and sleep beckons, all nighters return but paid, and worked for, and things never quit making sense, but working, or working slowly