pain never really goes away, "i'll never put away the anger, never stop punishing until it stops hurting," words, concepts, ideas, i thought i could leave behind in the dorm, shepard, on that floor, in that room, 219, on that sidewalk, outside my door, watching her walk up, give me a rose, a short stem, single red rose, and give me a kiss like nothing had even happened, i wish i could have had the courage to say just hold me, take on thing at a time, but then again, how hard would it be to get Kevin Willamson to write my life out on paper yeah, coming back to demons that haunt my soul, ever go away? ever really go away? we like to think they do. but they don't. we're going to lose to wsu somethings just aren't fair, or even fayre, or faire or phair bluegreen sucking chest wound