zen applied to sports, belief structure applied to recreational activities losing is alright, it happens, but to play poorly and win or lose is unacceptable, playing is playing, but don't bother if it's not well, by whose standards? who decides what is really playing? when I am, i do, and to play is to play, to be upset when i don't play as i know i can and should, to be a player, to be in the game, to be there, all there, body mind and soul, be the sport, or sit on the sidelines and watch the sport