it's bee a long time since i've wept at a movie, since i've wept at something other than the sad and painful memories of my short and relatively happy existance, but today, this morning, watching Jerry McGuire, that godawful movie, so evil, so pained, so wrong. "You complete me" ... "you had me at hello" ... bunch of bs bull shit bitter i am, i let it run through me, thrive within me, the pain, never let it go, let it fester, let it grow, healthy, no, but life sustaining sometimes. she had so much, to offer, to give, to receive, to take. why do things end up like that why do people make stupid decisions, why oh why does a caged bird sing? memories poignant in my mind, never to make a day go by without a feeling, an emotion, once foreign to me now a constant companion on my journey through life