love through clenched teeth, watching the creek tonight, thinking, just thinking, watching, voyeur, that is which i have lived through, not what i reacted, a punch, a simple throw of the arm, that would be a pretty good thing to have done, cathartic maybe, instead of the 3 years of dealing, but love through clenched teeth, the bad times, the evil times, when things aren't going quite well, when the seas are troubled, the sky looks dark, the not so smooth times, the endoplasmic reticuluum, muscle cells, something striated,