dawson's creek a show about life and how it could be, how it would be in my fantasies, colliding with reality, and it fucking sucks. what happened to entertainment, to fluff, to cheesy cream puffs, what happened? joey cheats on dawson, argue as you like with that, it was only a kiss, it wasn't even her, and it wasn't much like jamie in mad about you, but still, it's too close to the truth, mine anyway. i don't know why i keep watching that show, it's no longer fun to watch, it no longer makes me happy, and that being the reason for doing everything in life, how it makes me feel, it fucking sucks, and i so want to say no to it, deny it, push it away, and do something productive instead, but instead, i'll keep watching.