old returnings, wanting to, remembering, but not remembering, not looking forward in a mirror, not looking for a window, actually looking for a window, not videotapes, or dvds, or laserdiscs, but a window, an open door, something open, something free like the fields, like the blue sky, like birds soaring in the air, that, i'm looking for that, mind caged caged behind bars, no, not confined, not limited, tired, exhausted, busy, needing, no, not needing, never needing, just missing, missing, yeah