mind set, mind frame, must not crack, on verge, that cliff, that house on the cliff, working making it beautiful, sometimes it would just be easy to just push the house over the cliff, just let it all come down, without anything, just finish, finish it, get it done, can't be that hard, right? wondering if i could, if it's possible, what would it be like, i don't think i could, seems so foreign, seems so wrong, but so pedestrian, and that's all i am, nothing special, nothing unique, just one of many like borg, naive, idealistic, normal everyday pedestrian