privacy, personal information, mine, not yours if only now, and not later, socialism, capitalism, sharing and cooperations, corporations, not allowed, life lived in fear and paranoia, think everyone is evil, protection at all costs, risky living, risky business not an option, must stay alive. trust is so valuable, so much a gift, not a toy, not like bread crumbs you feed to ducks on a pond, it's expensive, you get registered to recieve it, handouts never make anyone better. yet knowledge is a great thing, so evil in its control, attempt to control like yarn and a kitten or worse off string from a kite. losing myself among everything and nothing, do what i wish or what i want or who i should and where i can't yes and no with no more to do