new presence, less of an audience, people staring blindly at actions performed on stage for them, to them, for the paying customers, like whores, who abuse themselves for the sake of others pleasure, service industries, lack thereof, keyboard failure, missing time and energy, seriousness with playfulness, which wins games? i ask thee why, and she answered because, pedestrian, nothing special about me, 18-22 influential time, lost the dream, the hope, the vision of anything, i am one of many, no better or worse, part of the huddled masses, just pedestrian, nothing special, that was her gift to me.