fearful, let loose, maybe? just maybe, without ground to stand on, but free falling. time running out, less and less available, things running away, a bear, not an otter, not playful, because i'm not, a bear, large, oafish, not smooth or skillful, plodding, determined, stubborn even. routine, likes to sleep the winter through, climbs trees, gets into trouble, how is that me? i see some of it, but really, a bear, brown or black, not a grizzly or a polar, but maybe a honey, that would make sense, got my nose in something sweet all the time, although sometimes, you just get stung